this is just because i miss ljing, not because this is actual content

Facebook is one of those places I always feel half-convinced of the legitimacy of online split personality; it could feel less like me, but I don't know how. Even my status updates feel weird and wrong, like someone else entirely is typing them. It's not me online, it's not me in RL, which are actually in a lot of ways basically the same thing, just without the need to spellcheck; I feel like I'm constructing someone new out of pieces of the things I am and the things I'm okay with people knowing about me, and the things I'm mostly not but have to be anyway.

This person is both boring and irritating; seriously, not good. Also, people keep finding me and come the fuck on. It's been fifteen years. How do you even remember my name?

Also, I have Iyaz's Replay stuck in my head. I love this song. But this? This is how I learn to loathe music. Right here.

(HE COOKS THINGS FOR HER AND WRITES SYMPHONIES. OVER AND OVER. IN MY HEAD.)

There we go--Jason Derulo. Better.

(I've also rediscovered twitter? This can't be good.)