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children of dune - leto 1
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Aww. I dont' think there is anything cuter than rabbits cuddling. Especially in a soft, furry threesome. When I look at them, they bare their teeth at me and silently promise to chew my throat out if I ever leave their ubercage open after I go to bed.

Again, I say, awww.

You may not have noticed that I'm being unusually boring, what with nano. Okay, maybe you have. That's because Livejournal is Temptation, and I'm avoiding temptation and all its offshoots, including sitting down anywhere near any fannish WIP while being assaulted by a truly disturbing number of completely pointless plotbunnies that I want to write right now.

But update on my life, as of today.

1.) I hate nano. More later.

2.) I have imagined out the John Sheppard presidential campaign, with his uberattack dog campaign manager, the ultra scary Rodney McKay who once got arrested for knocking out Geraldo on national TV. There's actually only two parts I wnat to write, which makes it easier to resist--the first, with his running mate Teyla Emmagen and former president Elizabeth Weir, being handed vicodin and rum as they watch Rodney singlehandedly yelling down a Republican crowd in New Mexico and scaring the other presidential candidate into crying hysterically, and the second, where Rodney and John are having a knock-down drag out about exactly what John is going to *be* as a president, since he was chosen more on his war record, good looks, straight male white Americanness than say, his stand on anything.

The second one is actually attracting me more, though I do want Rodney's disgusted commentary on the politicians of today. *sighs dreamily* Pretty.

3.) I broke down and rebuilt the rabbit fortress, which included removing the atrium and gutting the center out, which gives them more space and is a lot easier to clean. There's a single shelf running along the back for them to sit on and relax, which they seem to like, but I have yet to break them of their habit of shredding their newspaper floor. *sighs* It's so messy in there, and I just can't face it quite yet.

4.) I really hate nano.



Or actually, I don't. I just hate the way I have to write it.

I--okay, you who audience or beta for me know how I do this. I get out a lot at once, and the rest trickles in after I finish recovering from the burnout. Y'all, there's a *reason* I was a sprinter in track and field and not a two mile runner. And outside nano, where I had no time limits, I could do a lot at once and then recover at my leisure. I sprint, then I fall over gasping, then I get over it and sprint again. I'm restricting myself to *slow jogging" and I just--my rhythm is off, I feel unbalanced, and I figured it out; it's not because it's not fanfic--it's because this isn't how I *write*.

However, I have learned something intersting things, not least of which made me AIM a friend (also working on her own project) suddenly and tell her that the real problem is, I'm used to writing in plot-forwarding porn when I get stuck or bored. And it's *true*. And I'm sure she'd like to know the context of my stunningly out of context remark, but whatever.

One of the biggest criticisms of A Handful of Dust and Somewhere I Have Never Travelled was the fact that I was stuffing in sex scenes. Okay, in Dust, the biggest criticism ever was actually that I was oppressing and slamming Clark (seriously, I make him a god, give him a planet, and then put Lex Luthor willingly in his bed; what the hell else could anyone *want*?), but the sex thing came up fairly often. And it's true. I like writing it. I like reading it. And more than that, I like using it. Despite how it looks on reading, while writing, I needed every *one* of those sex scenes--each one had a differnet reason for being there, but they led into the next part, the next moment of emotional awareness, the way I set up the universe. I'm a girl, and a fanfic writer, and a slasher. All of these things make me like writing sex. But when I write it, I want it to do something. And it does.

The nano fic, other than the slow jog I'm doing since a sprint could mean I'd be burned out and couldn't make the finish line, does not allow anyone to have sex. Or to put it a different way, sex has no reason to be there. It'd be worse than gratituous--it would be awkward.

The more annoying--or less, depending on how you look at it--is that I know how it ends. And I even have a faint idea how to get there, though not particularly useful. It's--frustrating. I want a pony.

I want a *pony*.


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I want a pony that will write my nanofic for me.

*sulks with you*

Brownie?

This would be why my novel is stuck on chapter twenty with nothing written for the past YEAR. Also, because I got tired of looking at something I knew I would have to go back and rewrite later on.

*hands you my muse and a bottle of Jager*

*sighs with you and takes some jager*

Not to ignore your pain*hughugpatpat* but what a fascinating description of how you write.

I'm slightly boggled that anyone would complain about porn, but that's just me--there's nothing that can't be improved with pornflakes in my little corner of the world. It kind of hurts when you realize that the little scene of sex you've lovingly nurtured has to be eliminated.

*sighs* It is very much like running. After I finish a section, Madelyn even cheers and offers me valuable fannish gossip.

I want to say, "I feel your nano pain," except I don't, because I'm not, because I decided not to subject myself to growth experiences suffering. but boo to writerly frustration, anyhow.

also, I have imagined out the John Sheppard presidential campaign, with his uberattack dog campaign manager, the ultra scary Rodney McKay who once got arrested for knocking out Geraldo on national TV.

I love you, seriously, just, so much. John = Matt Santos and Rodney = Josh Lyman and queer = Latino? The only question is, why hasn't it already been written?

I *want* to. I freaking *plot this thing* when I'm supposed to be doing anything else. I have a *story arc*. Stupid nano keeps me from *writing it*.

I want the Sheppard for President! Campaign, but later. Say, January.

As for nano -- what you need is to think of something that can function in your narrative the way the sex does. hm.

*puts on thinky hat*

Yes, in your long-but-smutty stories you get a valuable two-piston effect by having an erotic plot as well as a plot-plot. For nano, you maybe need a second piston . . . I shall put more direct comments in a nano post.

But for me, your nano story *is* my pony. I have been known to delay getting ready for bed until you've posted your next installment. Pony! Plotty pony!

*hugs you* Believe it or not, your comments do help a lot; progress is being made! It's understandable! It's not a random collection fo words that sometimes fit into sentences.

IF I can just get the whole thing out, I know I can go back and re-read, see the patterns, and build them into something better. I just keep having to remind myself that just because I dont' see them yet doesn't mean they aren't there.

Sometimes I read things, and I think "wow, that sex scene was totally gratuitous and didn't need to be there."

I've never thought that about anything you've written.

Possibly because my brain is too melty after reading one of your sex scenes to think anything more sophisticated than 'yummy'. But really, we'll never know.

Rodney singlehandedly yelling down a Republican crowd in New Mexico and scaring the other presidential candidate into crying hysterically

That would be funny. Especially since I don't like politicians, and I'd like to see Rodney make all of them cry. (With the possible exception of Barack Obama.)

he was chosen more on his war record, good looks, straight male white Americanness

Straight?? He can't be straight! How would he and Rodney end up together?

Straight?? He can't be straight! How would he and Rodney end up together?

I'm sure Rodney is wondering teh same thing. Myself, I'm hoping for panicked drunken sex afer a bad debate or something.

*grins*

This icon is entitled "Give her a pony!" Seriously.

Do rabbits *really* bare their teeth at people and silently threaten to tear one's throat out? Because hearing that feels like someone told me there's no Santa Claus. I mean, rabbits are soft and cuddly and stuff, aren't they?

I'm so naive.

We have a post-traumatic bunny because she was the second rabbit my sister got and the first one was so offended to have this wee competitor stuck in her cage that she physically attacked the new one and tried to kill her. So the rabbits got separate cages and when my sister's fiance dumped her she let him keep the violent bunny and brought the terrified one home to us. She whimpers whenever someone tries to pet her back or sides, it's so sad -- but she's so soft we do it anyway.

...I needed every *one* of those sex scenes--each one had a differnet reason for being there, but they led into the next part, the next moment of emotional awareness, the way I set up the universe.

That is absolutely the reason why I don't get bored with the sex scenes in "Somewhere I Have Never Traveled" and in "Gladly Beyond". I think they are incredibly hot and passionate and they remain interesting after numerous reads, because they tell me more about Lex and Clark and the state of their relationship. Since I started reading slash a few years ago, and since a lot of romance in books nowadays contains quite a lot of what would have been considered porn in the past, I have become quite jaded and spoiled and I want sex scenes to transport more than simply a description of sex. Yours do.

I have actually been following the nano fic and assessing it with an eye to professional publication (not that I have any idea if that's even what you want, but it's what I do now so I can't help it), and I'm just curious as to why you think having more sex in it would be awkward? And I can't tell from this post if you mean that there's going to be very little sex or romance in the novel period, or just that you're having problems with pacing the book without it until you can get to the part of the story where you feel it will no longer be awkward for the sexual stuff to start happening. I can see why you feel the story you've been telling--at least thus far--doesn't allow anyone to have sex *quite* yet, and I would agree with that, but if you want there to eventually be porn... well, let's just say that as a reader of this genre, having it go to a porny place would not ruin anything or be at all surprising to me.

In fact, I've been wanting to give you critique on what I've read so far but didn't know if you wanted it--but for whatever it's worth one of the things I was thinking while reading was that the romantic and sexual elements, if there were ever going to be any, could stand to be made slightly more explicit (even just in a laying the groundwork way). Which leads into the other thing I wanted to comment on--

Despite how it looks on reading, while writing, I needed every *one* of those sex scenes--each one had a differnet reason for being there, but they led into the next part, the next moment of emotional awareness, the way I set up the universe. I'm a girl, and a fanfic writer, and a slasher. All of these things make me like writing sex. But when I write it, I want it to do something. And it does.

That's actually a gift, and a very useful one, and while I do think it is incredibly important to learn to structure a plot without it, I think forcing yourself not to write sex if that is one of your strengths as a writer is ultimately a bad idea. I strongly believe that people need to write what they like to write and what they're good at, whether they're writing fanfiction, pro novels, or just for their own satisfaction.

Anyway, I'm very interested in this story so far and let me know if you want to talk about it more, okay?

*Any* critique you would like to give is completely welcome. I mean that in absolute seriousness.

Regarding romance;

Well, depressingly, no, though UST would be very welcome if I can ever get it to work without being forced. I keep thinking if I finish, I'll probably have to go back and add in a little of those elements in retrospect, since they really aren't coming out quite yet. Or for that matter, at all. And that's part of the problem--for my two primary characters, that's not their relationship, and for everyone else, it would feel forced, especially since I only have one point of view character.

But to repeat--if you feel inspired to critique? Jesus, yes.

See, this is why I don't do Nano. Well, and I'm a lazy wench.

However I'm eagerly looking forward to John and Rodney's Fear and Loathing on the Campaign Trail -- oh yes!

No pony, cause I don't have any of those, but have a puppy.

:)

Well, I can't get you a pony, but will a nasty Rodney

icon do? I would *LOVE* to read those pieces on Presidential Candidate John Sheppard, they just *sound* fabu. As to the whole 'feedback' deal, hey, you're gonna get different people with different feeling, but Chlex seems pretty open and shut to me. Hmpf.

What kind of pony?

awww. Bunnies are so cute. Mine are not at the snuggling with each other stage (in fact, two of them try to kill each other if they get within striking distance), but one of them does actually cuddle with me on occasion.

Hope your writing goes better. Myself, I've never felt inclined to attempt something as big as Nano. So as far as I'm concerned, you get brownie points for even trying.

*nods sadly* Three of my rabbits get along swimmingly. The fourth one--well. It's kind of scary when it happens. And by kinda? I mean very.

*Takes the brownie points eagerly*

If I had a pony, I would totally give it to you.

Rodney singlehandedly yelling down a Republican crowd in New Mexico and scaring the other presidential candidate into crying hysterically

Oh my God! I can /so/ see that. I want to read that now.

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