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seperis
It feels really tacky to meta on your own fic when you're still in-progress and oh my God the *remixes rock*, but let me just state for the record, I have never, ever, in my entire fanfic career, enjoyed writing anything as much as I'm enjoying Crimes Against Humanity.

Also, for the record, quick rec on another remix, of auburnnothenna's You Must Remember This, titled You Must Remember This (The Same Old Story Remix). The sheer desperation and the feeling of time running out--wow. Serious wow. It is definitely a worthy remix to an amazing story.



I don't actually have a kink for prison fic, but I figured that creating new kinks is part of my duty as a well-rounded fangirl with multiple intersts and tastes. A Renaissance fangirl, if you will.

What's really getting me off is sitting down and being able to say, I think everyone should be wearing torture collars, because then I can randomly strike people down in the halls and don't have to wait for an outside enemy. Or, huh, you know, it would have been a lot more fun if the interrogation from Critical Mass was carried out with real enjoyment of all the fun inherent. And ooh, *explosions*, pretty! Which goes to show fandom has completely and utterly corrupted me in all ways. It's different from writing a combined AU using MirrorDimension fic, or even go and change one thing back in the past--I usually feel some need to *explain* why Universe B is such a mess, or such a better place. Here? No reasons.

Hmm. I keep thinkng about the three darkest stories of any length I've written--A Handful of Dust, which is dark but honestly, from Clark's pov, that place is sunshine and puppies in roses, you know?--Jus Ad Bellum, where I spent amazing amounts of time trying to make a statement--and it will never stop freaking me out a little that I started posting that just before 9/11--and Absolute Zero, which was the first time I seriously, seriously tried to write explicit torture. I used flashbacks and medical reports to gloss it to myself, but it says a lot about it that I flinch when re-reading it.

But thinking about it, I always had an *excuse* somewhere in my head, even if it was flimsy one, and that excuse dictated the level I was willing to suspend disbelief in what I was writing. So Jus Ad Bellum never got the sections of flashbacks to the labs where experimentation actually occurred, just the injuries catalogued and the emotional scars shown. It feels like Crimes doesn't have those kinds of limits, and a part of me, the part of me that kind of worries about going over the top, gets beat down a lot by the voice that says, you stripped them of their morals, their inner sense of humanity, and some of their sanity. They don't *have* limits. They have goals and want to achieve them in the most direct way, and the most direct way is going to appeal to their sincere lack of ability to empathize.

The one thing I did that I'm kinda still wondering about is bonding John immediately to Rodney, but I had this hugely practical reason for it, in that John's *nuts* and if I don't connect him up with someone fast, he'll have no brakes at all, and setting John Sheppard loose in Atlantis without a leash feels like possibly the very worst idea in history. On one hand--God, the death count. On the other--this story will be very short if everyone bonds together to kill him off the bat in a fit of self-preservation when he just gets way too enthusiastic with the armory. And frankly, John, cut off from his people in Earth with nothing to do and a lot of time to do it in, would instantly appreciate the man who created his bombs, who talks in death tolls and damage reports, who loves destruction just as much as John does, though he has better control of himself. He can connect with Elizabeth as his leader, but that personal connection that makes him more than just the living embodiment of chaos, with someone who can channel his tendencies and curb him when necessary--yeah. I liked that



I'm taking a short nap, my head is killing me. Final note: read the remixes! I'm about halfway through SGA and seriously, they rock. Smallville next. *bounces*


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t is definitely a worthy remix to an amazing story.

It is definitely so much better than the original story. In some cases this might make me feel pained, but I'm actually gleeful, because I wanted someone to remix that, I wanted someone to do something with the idea (which was good) that I thought I'd just glossed over. The remix is just a thing of beauty.

To me, they're--so completely different in tone that it's not very comparable. Does that make sense? What you were doing with the concept and what the remixer did were totally different streets, and I love how it flipped how I read yours after.

This is the main reason I love remixes so much. The good ones, of good stories like this? Totally change your perspective on the original as well.

I agree with you that John needed the bonding with Rodney, not only to keep him focused, but I got just the tiniest little hint that, for all that John is a criminally insane mass murderer without one iota of empathy, he is also somewhat a submissive and so needs a dominant lover. Of course, that may only be my interpretation of the character, but damn, this is such a fascinating universe that it leads to all kinds of speculation. *g*

*giggles*

He does need someone to focus him--aim him, if you will. I have this entire backstory thought that Mitch and his friends that were dead were kind of his total support system and he got caught without a group to ground him and keep him from just being totally insane constantly. Rodney, and this is jsut me writing it, how people read it is completely open to interpretation, is brilliant and utterly sociopathic, but extremely *stable*. He'd totally be drawn to that.

Seriously, *fun*. Hugely so.

It feels like Crimes doesn't have those kinds of limits, and a part of me, the part of me that kind of worries about going over the top, gets beat down a lot by the voice that says, you stripped them of their morals, their inner sense of humanity, and some of their sanity. They don't *have* limits.

Honestly, sometimes it's a really great vehicle to be dropped right into the middle of chaos and have a story unfurl like wings from the centre of it.

These people are cut off, without hope and in some cases sanity and are trying to control the only thing they can, their immediate environment. It works really well.

Glad to hear you are enjoying writing it immensley... means we get faster fic to feed our obsession... yes?

*big eyes*

*grins* Weirdly yes. My inner filter is off, so I'm not bothering to think it through. It's just--fun. GOd, so fun.

Oh noes!! I just saw there is a fourth chapter up when I can't read it!!!

I have to wait till tomorrow... durn it...!! :)

For the .02 that it's worth, plus or minus for the state of the economy, I am enjoying Crimes Against Humanity like no one's business. Every time I see you've posted a new part, I clap like a deranged seal and dash off to read it. So really what I'm saying is that I'm thrilled that this is even more exciting for you than it is for us, because no matter how much we enjoy reading it, there's nothing better than the thrill of creation. Long may you enjoy it.

*blissed out* I am so glutting on the dark chocolate of this thing. God.

And *hugs* Thanks.

I am enjoying Crimes Against Humanity like no one's business. Every time I see you've posted a new part, I clap like a deranged seal and dash off to read it.

I KNEW you'd be into this! Assassin fic, check, prison island fic, check.

Also, seperis, WORD, I had no internet this weekend and then this story just, like, *appeared* magically when the internet came back (magically, seriously, I do not understand these things called "computers") and I was all, oooh, SHINY. And the best kind of "oooh, SHINY" is the kind you create yourself.

I am enjoying Crimes Against Humanity like no one's business. Every time I see you've posted a new part, I clap like a deranged seal and dash off to read it.

I KNEW you'd be into this! Assassin fic, check, prison island fic, check.


You know me so well :D

OMG DERANGED SEAL!!!!!

*falls down snorting and dies*

I have this odd habit, that I may or may not have mentioned before, of falling into mad obsessions with new fandoms during exam season. To wit: the first time I encountered Smallville and, immediately thereafter, your fic was during the exam season of my fourth year of university. I read through your entire back catalogue in extremely and arguably unwise (I should have been studying!) short order.

It should come as no surprise, given this, that I have tumbled ass over tea kettle into SG:A during this, my first exam season in three years. I have spent the day studying very hard reading Crimes Against Humanity...twice.

I will blame you if I fail my exams tomorrow, curse your insufferable brilliance.

*smug*

I mean, oh! No! Not that!

I am right now thinking how when I get home, I will write more in your honor. *nods with huge, sincere eyes*

Despite the fact that I have another exam tomorrow, I ENCOURAGE THAT QUITE ENTHUSIASTICALLY.

Er.

I mean.

Yes, please.

I'm pretty sure I can wing tomorrow's exam, anyway.

I read several SGA stories. Talk about unusual If you keep offering recs, it might become a habit. :P

Starting to feel the Sheppard/McKay love. Oy!

Smallville!! i'm nearly through your entire posted catalog of Smallville. I'll be honest w/ you - I've made myself slow down because I know I'm close to the end.

...."Pretty when you're mine." .......What do you want? chocolate? Money? Cute, hot body-slaves focused on fulfilling your every wish & desire? (be it passionate sex or taking out the trash...)

I'm getting desperate enough to get you ANYTHING for more of that story. I've read all there is 3 times now. It just ENDS. It's a crime!!!

... I re-read your post... You were talking about *reading* the smallville fics from the remix & not about writing more smallville.... ::wilts & walks away w/ head hanging::

The one thing I did that I'm kinda still wondering about is bonding John immediately to Rodney,

I was totally glad to read that, as I had pondered the speed of their connecting to each other on my second read through and I had half convinced myself that omg, maybe john was stringing rodney along! using him! oh noes! and my heart would have been broken into little tiny pieces! but that is not the case! huzzah! (that's not the case right. Right? ::looks worried::)

no no no, this is technically OTP fic. I mean, give or take some life-destroying and homicidal fits, everyone's pretty zen and happy.

First off, I'm enjoying this series immensely - I'm glad you're having such fun writing it!

I'm kinda still wondering about bonding John immediately to Rodney

See, this is one of those things that I've thought quite a lot about whilst reading this story. I admit I was a little unsure about it in earlier chapters, but by chapter four, it was working for me, mainly for the reasons you've said, John does need something to cling onto, and for me he was initially attracted to Rodney's crime prior to meeting him. However, their relationship also works for me as a reader - not knowing where you're intending to go with this - because the speed with which they've bonded implies either a) it's not sincere and the reader's just waiting for Rodney to be screwed over in some monumentally epic and bloodthirsty way (made all the more scary by John and Rodney's conversation about Elizabeth in Ch 4) or b) it is sincere, and the reader's waiting for something to happen to Rodney and for John to lose it completely.

I suppose what I'm trying to say is that for me, this worked really well - particularly as the story's developing - because it just added to the feeling in this fic that anything could happen,there are no boundaries or limits to what these people will do, they literally will stop at nothing. With the J/R relationship, we are, in a way, back on solid ground, but with none of the normal principles that shape this relationship we're still left guessing, and that's making this enormously fun to read, but also seriously scary! Thank you!

Ooh, see, I can totally picture this. Rodney is injured or something in the lab and the scientists are literally *welding the lab doors closed* because John's out there with his favorite knife ready to kill them all.

Actually, off-world would be more interesting. Hmmm.

So glad you mentioned the John/Rodney dynamic in this story, because when it was first happening I sat back and thought. But you're right, because John probably knows that as good as he is, Atlantis is different, and at first Rodney seems very, very useful, but then he mentions the bombs and specs on the city and exactly how many well-placed ZPM-fueled nuclear kilotons it would take to fucking *melt* a planet and probably helped calculate how many rounds were in each of the weapons the guards carried (which John probably indulged even knowing he'd only need a single bullet for each of the four guards - possibly just three), and that's probably as good as saying "I love you" to him. What would be really interesting is seeing what Rodney would do now that they have bonded and he's had a little of John's unbridled homicidal psychopathic glee rub off on him if John was somehow forcibly taken.

Uh, sorry, that was more thinking out loud than actual comment. This series has me seriously strung out, and I'll follow it anywhere.

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